[ my christmas spirit ]
had a lovely day out with johan today. for the first time we didn't leave the house 15 minutes before shops closed, so we had plenty of time to walk walk.
we bought everyone's presents except each others. you may think that we still have time as christmas is not for another 2 days, but here it is celebrated on the 24th (no idea why). so that leaves us with today. and i still gotta clean the whole house because his dad is coming to stay tomorrow. anyway whatever, i'm glad i got the most of it done.
on another note, my christmas spirit still hasn't come. usually it comes late november, but now... nothing yet. i've been crying everyday for the past couple of days. the christmas season is my favourite time of year and i've spent all of them so far with my family. every year around this time i get all sentimental and nostalgic-y, but even more so now as this'll be my first one away from them. don't get me wrong, i love that i'm with johan, but of course christmas with another family will never feel the same as with your own. you know you spend 24 christmases with your family, and sometimes you just take it for granted.
and you'd think that i'd feel more christmassy here, what with the snowing and all. but i don't. i think i left my xmas spirit at home. with my family. it's probably in my mum's pocket, she always keeps things for me when i lose them. :(
my christmas spirit hasn't come yet. maybe tomorrow.
♥
Jill
12:50 AM
